kode adsense disini
Hot Best Seller

Lost in Indigo

Availability: Ready to download

Mathieu Beresford was so close to seeing his dream come true. The thirty-eight-year-old captain of the Buffalo Surge had led his team to the final round of the playoffs with his aggressive defensive play and leadership. During the first game of the championship series, he was taken down, and his leg snapped upon impact with the boards. From his hospital bed, Mathieu watched Mathieu Beresford was so close to seeing his dream come true. The thirty-eight-year-old captain of the Buffalo Surge had led his team to the final round of the playoffs with his aggressive defensive play and leadership. During the first game of the championship series, he was taken down, and his leg snapped upon impact with the boards. From his hospital bed, Mathieu watched his team go on to win it all. Adrift in anger, resentment, and the new direction of his life, he returns to his mansion along the St. Lawrence River. Alone and sulking, Mathieu is not prepared for Indigo Neu to enter his life. The genderflux twenty-year-old botany major signs on to play nursemaid, confidant, and groundskeeper over the summer and slowly leads Mathieu out of his confusion––one tender smile and touch at a time. The deeper Mathieu falls, the more he wonders if being lost might not be so bad after all.


Compare
kode adsense disini

Mathieu Beresford was so close to seeing his dream come true. The thirty-eight-year-old captain of the Buffalo Surge had led his team to the final round of the playoffs with his aggressive defensive play and leadership. During the first game of the championship series, he was taken down, and his leg snapped upon impact with the boards. From his hospital bed, Mathieu watched Mathieu Beresford was so close to seeing his dream come true. The thirty-eight-year-old captain of the Buffalo Surge had led his team to the final round of the playoffs with his aggressive defensive play and leadership. During the first game of the championship series, he was taken down, and his leg snapped upon impact with the boards. From his hospital bed, Mathieu watched his team go on to win it all. Adrift in anger, resentment, and the new direction of his life, he returns to his mansion along the St. Lawrence River. Alone and sulking, Mathieu is not prepared for Indigo Neu to enter his life. The genderflux twenty-year-old botany major signs on to play nursemaid, confidant, and groundskeeper over the summer and slowly leads Mathieu out of his confusion––one tender smile and touch at a time. The deeper Mathieu falls, the more he wonders if being lost might not be so bad after all.

30 review for Lost in Indigo

  1. 4 out of 5

    ~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~

    I liked many things about this story: - Canada (because Reasons, and also Justin Trudeau) - Hockey players (I can never get enough, and Mat was delicious.) - Genderflux character (I adored Indigo, and the word "genderflux" should be self-explanatory: it's gender in flux, meaning depending on the day, the person may feel more masculine or feminine or neither. Indigo tends to go for brighter, flowy clothes and makeup, and he smells like a tropical garden.) - Hurt/comfort at its finest (Mat is down for I liked many things about this story: - Canada (because Reasons, and also Justin Trudeau) - Hockey players (I can never get enough, and Mat was delicious.) - Genderflux character (I adored Indigo, and the word "genderflux" should be self-explanatory: it's gender in flux, meaning depending on the day, the person may feel more masculine or feminine or neither. Indigo tends to go for brighter, flowy clothes and makeup, and he smells like a tropical garden.) - Hurt/comfort at its finest (Mat is down for the count with a busted leg, and Indigo is there to cheer him up. Indigo wants to do more, but Evil Nurse keeps him away.) - SCORCHING SEX (Just. S0. Much. Hotness.) - HEA! *swoons* because OMFG, that epilogue was everything. I would have preferred a dual POV, but only Mat narrates the story. I feel like I got to know Indigo well through Mat's musings, but I wish I could have seen Mat the way Indigo sees him. There were a few typos (mostly missing letters), but overall, the writing was accessible . My biggest complaint is the Evil Nurse. That woman was fucking vicious: cruel, judgey, self-righteous. And, yeah, people like that exist. What annoyed me was Mat's reaction, or rather lack thereof, to the nurse's savageness. I mean, the woman had it out for Indigo and caused conflict and drama from day one. She kept Mat locked up and tried to subdue him by drugging him, yet Mat put up with it for weeks. Here's this big, tough hockey player, team captain nonetheless, and he just allowed the abuse. He finally stood up to her, but the craziness went on way too long. I'm glad Indigo refused to be a doormat, and Mat did do right by him in the end, after being a colossal dickwad first though. I loved Mat's big gesture. Gimme more books in this series, please!

  2. 4 out of 5

    J *deep in the heart of Texas*

    DNF @ 24% This one didn't work for me. Sadly, I felt zero connection with the MCs. And that nurse. Don't even get me started on nurse Rampette *insert eye roll*

  3. 5 out of 5

    Karen

    It seems that my Canadianism is showing again, because... right off the setting for this one had me wanting to read it…you guessed it…CANADA!!! And to boot one of the most beautiful places in Canada the Thousand Islands located on the St. Lawrence River. So we’re off to a lovely start with this setting and then I got to meet Indigo…I loved Indigo for so very many reasons. I loved that he was unapologetically who he was. Indigo refers to himself as ‘genderflux’ and rather than take a bunch of spa It seems that my Canadianism is showing again, because... right off the setting for this one had me wanting to read it…you guessed it…CANADA!!! And to boot one of the most beautiful places in Canada the Thousand Islands located on the St. Lawrence River. So we’re off to a lovely start with this setting and then I got to meet Indigo…I loved Indigo for so very many reasons. I loved that he was unapologetically who he was. Indigo refers to himself as ‘genderflux’ and rather than take a bunch of space up here in my review explaining this I’m going to suggest that you do as I did and go ask google. I admit I had a general idea of what this term was but being curious I wanted to know why ‘genderflux’ wasn’t quite ‘genderfluid’. So back to Indigo who is a young, gay man who also identifies as ‘genderflux’ and well…he’s just special. He’s one of those people who has that something extra special and knowing him makes a person’s life that little bit better and while he’s confident, he’s not conceited or arrogant. Indigo’s come to ‘Bere’s Den’ for the summer to earn money for school, he’s a botany major, taking care of the grounds and helping out with Mathieu Beresford’s care. Following some pretty serious surgery on his leg after being taken down during a game in the play-offs that resulted in a broken leg…a very complicated broken leg. Mathieu’s the captain of the ‘Buffalo Surge’ and at 38 years old he’s had a solid and successful hockey career and all he really needs to make it perfect is a Stanley Cup win to his name…sadly his team goes on to achieve this while Mat’s in a hospital bed. As Mat and Indigo spend time together and get to know each other Mat begins to question his life and the choices that have led to him being so deep in the closet that finding the door is more akin to trying to follow a maze without a map. Along with the MCs we were given an interesting cast of supporting characters from Mat’s friend and beard, Fran. I loved Fran, she was confident and outspoken the kind of friend everyone needs…she gave Mat the truth rather than what he wanted to hear when he sought out her counsel. I also liked Indigo’s father who was Mat’s caretaker as well as his friend and then there was Mat’s agent Arn…while he wasn’t perfect, he was Mat’s friend and what came out of his mouth wasn’t always the right thing to say it was truly never said with malice but with Mat’s best interest at heart…albeit misguided at times, but still he wasn’t a bad person by any means. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for the owner of the ‘Buffalo Surge’ that man was a bag ‘o’ dicks! and last but not least there was Mat’s nurse. Sorry I honestly can’t remember her name and can’t be bothered to look it up but she was definitely an interesting character. Even though I felt sorry for her, this didn’t stop me from disliking her immensely as well. There was so much about this story that I enjoyed and top of the list is the dynamics between Indigo and Mat. While Indigo is the younger partner in this May/December romance. He’s also in many ways the person who truly knows himself the best. He knows who he is and what he wants and most importantly of all he knows that as much as he loves Mat, he needs to love himself as well. Mat knows that he loves Indigo and that what they have is something special. What he doesn’t know is if he can be the man that Indigo deserves but he really wants to try. This wasn’t necessarily a perfect representation of how the sports world is…specifically the world of professional hockey, I liked that this story gave a more realistic representation of the challenges that a gay man would face as a professional hockey player. For Mat being out and a professional hockey player was never really an option, so his world was about choices…out and proud, personal happiness or professional success, hockey or Indigo…maybe, one day these won’t be choices that a person has to make. But for Mat that day hasn’t arrived. This wasn’t just a story about falling in love, for Mat it was also a story about finding yourself and being true to who you are, I admit that while I loved Indigo from the start it took me a while to warm up to the character of Mat. Not that he didn’t evoke any emotion in me…nope, I can honestly say that Mat made me angry, annoyed and frustrated on more than one occasion because amongst other things he sometimes felt like the king of the pity party, but he also had me cheering for him and smiling as he traveled his own path of self awareness and personal growth. ‘Lost in Indigo’ is the first book in V. L. Locey’s new series ‘Colors of Love’ and it’s definitely a strong enough start to have me wanting to see what comes next…and maybe I read the blurb at the end of this one but either way sign me up for the journey. ************************ A copy of ‘Lost in Indigo’ was graciously provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.

  4. 4 out of 5

    Cadiva

    4.5* This is a great opener for this new series from V.L. Locey which are all going to be stand-alone romances. Indigo is fabulous, such an intriguingly drawn character, self-assured but also vulnerable, a dirty talker but also loving to snuggle up and just talk. I fell for him big time. Mat, on the other hand, was a bit harder to build up feelings for. He's quite reserved and he's in the closet, he's almost 20 years older than Indigo and I spent quite a bit of the time wanting to knock some sense 4.5* This is a great opener for this new series from V.L. Locey which are all going to be stand-alone romances. Indigo is fabulous, such an intriguingly drawn character, self-assured but also vulnerable, a dirty talker but also loving to snuggle up and just talk. I fell for him big time. Mat, on the other hand, was a bit harder to build up feelings for. He's quite reserved and he's in the closet, he's almost 20 years older than Indigo and I spent quite a bit of the time wanting to knock some sense into him. There's a great bunch of secondary characters and I loved the setting up on the St Lawrence River where Mat goes home to his island, licking his ice hockey wounds and unexpectedly falls in love. I liked that this book felt grounded in the reality of how a gay ice hockey player would be such a huge deal and how Mat didn't want to be the trail blazer. Obviously I'd love it even more if being a gay sportsman wasn't a huge deal in the first place but I think V.L. handles this perfectly in the narrative and shows the bone deep fears Mat harbours. Altogether a truly hot read, this book is also an emotionally connected love story between men who shouldn't work on paper but who are perfect for each other. #ARC kindly received from the author in return for an honest and unbiased review.

  5. 4 out of 5

    Amanda

    Lost in Indigo make me rage for almost half the book. Let me just say 'Closet case alert!' We have hockey star, Mat who is late 30s, on the brink of his retirement. He is suffering a career ending injury, but even without the injury, we know his time will come to an end sooner of later. Mat returned to his island to recuperate. An island! Indigo is his ground-keeper's son, who is almost 20 years his junior, who was at the island during his summer break. Indigo is a gender fluid, who loves to emb Lost in Indigo make me rage for almost half the book. Let me just say 'Closet case alert!' We have hockey star, Mat who is late 30s, on the brink of his retirement. He is suffering a career ending injury, but even without the injury, we know his time will come to an end sooner of later. Mat returned to his island to recuperate. An island! Indigo is his ground-keeper's son, who is almost 20 years his junior, who was at the island during his summer break. Indigo is a gender fluid, who loves to embrace his feminine side, much to the ire of Mat's nurse. Yeah, we have a homophobic nurse who doesn't refrain from telling Indigo she loathe him and she keep telling Mat that she's praying for his soul. OMG! I hate her so much. Mat also got a homophobic agent, Arn. But the thing that make my blood boil was how Mat enable these bigots. Yeah, once awhile, Mat might take an effort to correct them, but mostly he just roll with it. To be honest, I don't know why did Indigo even like his grumpy ass. Mat is a coward for like 80% of the book. I want to be understanding of his plight, he is not the first nor the last athlete to be in the closet, but I'm just so mad about his action. Indigo deserves better than his sorry ass. Did Mat redeem himself in the end? Sorta. I thought it was kinda too late in the book. I'm not happy with the way Indigo deliver the ultimatum either. We don't get Indigo's POV, so I'm not sure how serious is he about the ultimatum or he just wanted to get rid of Mat. It was never explained, but Mat did it and they get their HEA. I'm still mad though.

  6. 5 out of 5

    Kaje Harper

    I appreciated seeing a story with a non-cis-gender MC (Indigo prefers genderflux, feeling it fits him better then genderfluid, and he uses male pronouns.) Mat is a veteran hockey player in the final years of his career who is sidelined by a really bad leg fracture. Indigo is the son of his island caretaker, a college student who is willing to earn some extra summer cash by helping Mat out while he's laid up. And from the first moment a pain-pill-addled Mat sees Indigo in his flamboyant style and I appreciated seeing a story with a non-cis-gender MC (Indigo prefers genderflux, feeling it fits him better then genderfluid, and he uses male pronouns.) Mat is a veteran hockey player in the final years of his career who is sidelined by a really bad leg fracture. Indigo is the son of his island caretaker, a college student who is willing to earn some extra summer cash by helping Mat out while he's laid up. And from the first moment a pain-pill-addled Mat sees Indigo in his flamboyant style and says "You're cute", Mat's heart and his closet are on a collision course. Mat has never told anyone he's gay, although he's had a few sexual encounters over the years. He kept those as short and simple and anonymous as possible, because coming out as gay was a career-killer when he began playing hockey. He's afraid it might still be. And with his leg injury possibly too severe to come back from, Mat doesn't want to risk anything else at all that might influence his team into wanting him gone. He's not coming out, as long as there's any chance he can still play. As the guys become closer, Indigo at first says he's willing to keep Mat's secret. But it's one thing to keep the secret of "he's gay" and something else to hide the fact that "I mean something to him." In a world of paparazzi and agents and religious nurses and best-friend beards, Indigo hits limits on what he will put up with to be with Matt in private. Hockey players have to be tough, but Mat is going to have to figure out where his courage should be applied, to get the life he truly needs. I enjoyed watching Mat deal with his attraction to the flamboyant guy, and the bone-deep fear of having nothing left if he doesn't have hockey. He's not always admirable, but it is understandable. I was a bit sorry that after a long slow build, the ending skipped some of the stuff I really wanted to see. (view spoiler)[After Mat comes out, we see very little of the response to that. What did his teammates do and say? Was there fan backlash? He tells his mother off-page. Given the depth of his fears driving so much of the story, I'd like to have actually seen the ways he was right, as well as the ones where he was wrong. (hide spoiler)] The epilogue also goes a little bit deep into eloquent sweetness, for who Mat is. Even so, I liked this tale of the hockey player finding courage, and the genderflux guy finding someone who could love him in all his colors.

  7. 4 out of 5

    JustJen "Miss Conduct"

    I really enjoyed this one. You have a hockey star who is injured and angry about it and having to face a life without hockey. He is also deeply closeted. While recovering at his river island home, his world is turned upside down when he meets Indigo Neu, his caretaker’s son who is working with his dad for the summer. Indigo identifies as genderflux. He’s out and proud and embraces who he is. Matieu, not Matthew, is bowled over by the stunning young man, and they have some pretty crazy instant ch I really enjoyed this one. You have a hockey star who is injured and angry about it and having to face a life without hockey. He is also deeply closeted. While recovering at his river island home, his world is turned upside down when he meets Indigo Neu, his caretaker’s son who is working with his dad for the summer. Indigo identifies as genderflux. He’s out and proud and embraces who he is. Matieu, not Matthew, is bowled over by the stunning young man, and they have some pretty crazy instant chemistry. But, there is the major issue of Mat not believing coming out is a possibility due to his career, which is his sole focus in life. Mat and Indigo become fast friends – Indigo isn’t intimidated by Mat, and doesn’t hesitate to take care of him. He is a ray of sunshine in Mat’s otherwise now dull life, and it was easy to see. Mat was intrigued to say the least, whether by Indigo’s outfits and makeup or wearing next to nothing down and dirty working in the flowerbeds. I should mention Nurse Rachett, the woman hired by Mats agent to take care of him for the summer. She was horrible and extremely homophobic. She was awful to Indigo and constantly praying for Mat’s soul. She was truly unbelievable, but Mat finally stands up to her, eventually. On the flip side, Indigo’s father is wonderfully supportive and loving. As expected, there is trouble throughout with Mats sexuality. He and Indigo were amazing together by themselves. But, any outside activity where other people were involved and Mat’s cowardice was front and center with Indigo suffering the fallout. Thankfully, Mat comes to his senses, realizes what’s most important and works to set things right. Indigo doesn’t make it too easy for him, and rightfully so, but I really was rooting for them to pull through. I thought this was a great series opener. I fell in love with Indigo and Mat ended up winning my heart as well. I’m really looking forward to seeing what else is in store for this colorful series! Review written for Love Bytes Reviews.

  8. 5 out of 5

    JenMcJ

    I think this book was probably sadly realistic so it was heartbreaking in its scope of those deep in the closet and those that just can't be closeted. Well written but the whole Nurse thing was overdone and her outright homophobia should have been dealt with immediately. Could anyone have a backbone besides Fran and Indigo in this book? Anyone? I wonder what Mat would have done if he had met Indigo when he was healthy and not facing the potential end of his 20 year hockey career. Because I don't I think this book was probably sadly realistic so it was heartbreaking in its scope of those deep in the closet and those that just can't be closeted. Well written but the whole Nurse thing was overdone and her outright homophobia should have been dealt with immediately. Could anyone have a backbone besides Fran and Indigo in this book? Anyone? I wonder what Mat would have done if he had met Indigo when he was healthy and not facing the potential end of his 20 year hockey career. Because I don't think Mat would have made the same decisions, it was really hard to believe in the strength of his love now. This book explores the difficulty of having any true long term relationship while closeted, not just finding love. The amount of hurt and indignity Mat dumps on Indigo was just too hard to swallow and made me dislike Mat. Indigo deserved better. That cover boy is beautiful.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Angela

    I’m giving a low score because the MC isn’t worthy of his love interest. Mat doesn’t deserve Indigo. The amount of homophobia and hatred he allowed in his home that was mostly directed at the man he was in love with made me sick. And the scene in the dining room when the agent and team owner have dinner at Mat’s home was beyond disgusting. I didn’t even read the happy ending. Just no. I’m so angry.

  10. 5 out of 5

    namericanwordcat

    I am excited about the start of V.L Locey new series Colors of Love. This first book in series gives us an age gap romance set on the stunning St. Lawerence River between a pro hockey player and a college student doing gardening for the summer. There are a great deal of common tropes here but I think what the book does really well as look at the costs of being closeted as Mat is. It also takes seriously the struggle of coming out in a religous culture (in this case French Canadian Catholic) and w I am excited about the start of V.L Locey new series Colors of Love. This first book in series gives us an age gap romance set on the stunning St. Lawerence River between a pro hockey player and a college student doing gardening for the summer. There are a great deal of common tropes here but I think what the book does really well as look at the costs of being closeted as Mat is. It also takes seriously the struggle of coming out in a religous culture (in this case French Canadian Catholic) and when you are from the generation of men just after the highest point of the AIDS epidemic. I was a young adult during these time period and newly out as bisexual and going to my first Prides and much of my activism intersected with what was happening in the community around AIDS so I think I have a special infinity for stories that blend the arc of recent LGBTQA history into the characters. Mat and Indigo are instantly attracted. The love that builds between them is that young tender first love through they both are far from virgins. Indigo's identity as genderflux layers into the plot. Indigo does think he can handle a relationship on the down low. But he cant's and Mat is confronting the end of his career and coming out. Despite the high drama of some of the plot points the overall tone of book is sweet and reflective. We get a lovely HEA.

  11. 4 out of 5

    Joyfully Jay

    A Joyfully Jay review. 4.25 stars Lost in Indigo is my first book by V.L. Locey and I must say, I was really impressed. Locey manages to take some familiar tropes — closeted athlete; an injury causing the potential end of a career — and make them feel fresh and really engaging. She nicely combines some sweet and sexy characters with a really interesting setting for a book that definitely captured my attention. First off, I really loved Mat and Indigo. If you like super mushy and romantic, combined A Joyfully Jay review. 4.25 stars Lost in Indigo is my first book by V.L. Locey and I must say, I was really impressed. Locey manages to take some familiar tropes — closeted athlete; an injury causing the potential end of a career — and make them feel fresh and really engaging. She nicely combines some sweet and sexy characters with a really interesting setting for a book that definitely captured my attention. First off, I really loved Mat and Indigo. If you like super mushy and romantic, combined with hot and sexy, this story is going to be for you. I’ll be honest, I’m not always a mushy romance kind of girl, but this one totally worked for me. Mat and Indigo are just so sweet with one another as they share their feelings and I got totally swept up in their relationship. Indigo is pretty much impossible not to like, with his enthusiasm and sunny personality. I appreciated so much that this guy may be young, but he is not a pushover and he won’t settle for anything less that he deserves. I also liked that Indigo being genderflux is given proper attention, but also not made into an enormous deal either. Mathieu is totally attracted to Indigo in all his forms and I enjoyed seeing the different ways Indigo expresses himself over the course of the book. Read Jay’s review in its entirety here.

  12. 5 out of 5

    BR11

    What a great start to this new series by Locey! Loved this book. Indigo was the sweetest thing. His gender fluidity pushing all of Mat’s closeted buttons. And he was nobody doormat! Good for him! I really liked both characters and the story development. Their sexy times were haaawwtt! These two had a great chemistry in the bedroom. Only bad thing is that I now have to wait till Feb 2019 for the next book. Recommend!

  13. 5 out of 5

    Bev

    Calling time of death at 45%. Mathieu is a big wuss and Nurse Ratchet?? She needs shooting. Shame, cos I usually really like Vicki's hockey stories, especially Point Shot Trilogy Boxed Set, but not this time around unfortunately ☹.

  14. 4 out of 5

    Katie

    Review to come but the SHEER AMOUNT OF HOMOPHOBIA BY A CHARACTER THAT DOES NOT GO UNCHALLENGED TILL LATE IS JUST....

  15. 4 out of 5

    Megan

    To truly appreciate others you have to accept yourself. Mathieu Beresford is hurt at a pivotal moment in his hockey career and all he wants to do is hide away from the world. That's not the only thing he wants to keep hidden though. But one look at the vibrant Indigo has him taking a hard look at who he is and what he wants. Except he'll have to dig deep, really deep, to find the courage to accept every piece of himself if he wants to give Indigo everything they deserve. Indigo is fierce, sweet, To truly appreciate others you have to accept yourself. Mathieu Beresford is hurt at a pivotal moment in his hockey career and all he wants to do is hide away from the world. That's not the only thing he wants to keep hidden though. But one look at the vibrant Indigo has him taking a hard look at who he is and what he wants. Except he'll have to dig deep, really deep, to find the courage to accept every piece of himself if he wants to give Indigo everything they deserve. Indigo is fierce, sweet, and definitely not a pushover. I do think he was young and his immaturity showed at times. The one issue I have with him is his willingness to be a secret and then when that's tested he not only shows his hurt, but he acts as if it wasn't something he was prepared for. His youth and hurt made him react on a grand scale. I won't say I disagree with what he did, because I don't, I just think that there was some perspective and empathy that was missing. Coming out should always be done by and for the individual and I don't think it should be forced. Indigo gave Mat quite a large push in that direction, but one that was sorely needed. Mat wasn't exactly what I expected. I anticipated getting a bear in temperament and a damaged man that needed to sort through a myriad of issues, but what I wasn't expecting was his acquiescence to the harpy of a nurse. To laugh at her ridiculousness and be understanding of her views didn't show emotional maturity to me, it showed cowardice and weakness. He eventually made it right but it shocked me that he would put up with it for so long. He was also a colossal a-hole regarding Indigo when the pressure was on. I would have loved to have an alternating POV but we only get Mat's thoughts. It became a bit depressing and a little annoying at times to be constantly brought back to his weakness over and over again but he was the one who needed to make the most changes so I can understand focusing on him and his experiences instead. Overall, though, the story was so very good. There was incredible passion and the steam was hot, hot, hot! Mat's grand gesture was so great; it really worked beautifully to lead us to the best epilogue ever. Such a fantastic story!

  16. 5 out of 5

    Ruthie Taylor

    ~~I received a free copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads ~~ This is the first in a new series - and I am looking forward to future installments. The story of a closeted hockey player is not unheard of, but we do get some interesting issues being raised about how far Mat can cope with homophobia when it is not addressed directly at him - and it would seem that he has no ability to defend the very man he cares about the most. Something which may just cost him a happy future. As the ~~I received a free copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads ~~ This is the first in a new series - and I am looking forward to future installments. The story of a closeted hockey player is not unheard of, but we do get some interesting issues being raised about how far Mat can cope with homophobia when it is not addressed directly at him - and it would seem that he has no ability to defend the very man he cares about the most. Something which may just cost him a happy future. As the author throws tests at him, in the form of both his agent, and most definitely his nurse, it is the lying to a very loyal friend which made me sit up and really question his moral code and just how deep this cave is that he created for himself. It is sad, and yet, I am sure based on fact, as perceptions are going to take still longer to adjust. I wish that Indigo had been able to give us his viewpoint, as I have no doubt he had some interesting thoughts at times, which may have swayed our view of why he was so patient and forgiving. There is no doubt, a loving romance here, but behind a door which Mat needed to be opened much sooner. I hope that we get to see how life progresses for them in the future.

  17. 4 out of 5

    Sarah

    3.5 stars - I was given a copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads. I think I may have hit saturation point this year with m/m hockey romances. And this was another story I could quite easily play tired trope bingo with. Aging NHL player. Tick. Handsome and wealthy. Tick Closeted and unhappy. Tick. Career threatening injury. Tick. Honestly, there isn’t much that separates Mat and Indigo’s book from so many others. Told entirely from Mathieu’s perspective, this is the story of an agi 3.5 stars - I was given a copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads. I think I may have hit saturation point this year with m/m hockey romances. And this was another story I could quite easily play tired trope bingo with. Aging NHL player. Tick. Handsome and wealthy. Tick Closeted and unhappy. Tick. Career threatening injury. Tick. Honestly, there isn’t much that separates Mat and Indigo’s book from so many others. Told entirely from Mathieu’s perspective, this is the story of an aging hockey player falling for a much younger man as he recovers from a potentially career ending injury. If Mat is a hockey cliche, Indigo is at least a more original character. The genderfluid young man is fascinating, honest and real. I kept wishing for a dual narrative where we heard his voice because I did grow tired of Mat’s self pity after a while. Off the ice, Mat is a broody and reflective introvert. There are moments when this is charming, but especially after he starts to recover, there are too many moments where he just needed to get over himself. This is an entertaining read but as it focuses on Mat’s off season recovery, some of the banter and playfulness I usually enjoy in sports romance is missing. This story stays series and there are times it does get a little bit sentimental and soppy

  18. 5 out of 5

    Jennifer

    Ok just gotta throw out there how often Mathieu pissed me off lmao. Seriously he would be of one mind only to get scared and hurt poor Indigo. I really enjoyed the storyline though, but I wanted to know more about the ghost! I was really excited to read this book because it sounded so good, and I'm happy to report that it was a good as it sounded. The characters are brilliant! I really admire Indigo for being who he is and his father is my hero. Overall the story was great, characters loveable.. Ok just gotta throw out there how often Mathieu pissed me off lmao. Seriously he would be of one mind only to get scared and hurt poor Indigo. I really enjoyed the storyline though, but I wanted to know more about the ghost! I was really excited to read this book because it sounded so good, and I'm happy to report that it was a good as it sounded. The characters are brilliant! I really admire Indigo for being who he is and his father is my hero. Overall the story was great, characters loveable...minus one lol... and I'm curious to see if there may be a glimpse of them in the future.

  19. 5 out of 5

    Natalie

    This is a fine start to a series that looks to be adding more diverse character choices for this author. The story setting is the 1,000 islands on the St. Lawrence River between Canada and the US and was gorgeously described. At a rather immature 38, Mathieu heads to his own island home, depressed about a bone density problem found after a severe injury on the ice. There he meets beautiful, genderflux Indigo, his caretaker’s college age son and he’s captivated but initially wary of their age dif This is a fine start to a series that looks to be adding more diverse character choices for this author. The story setting is the 1,000 islands on the St. Lawrence River between Canada and the US and was gorgeously described. At a rather immature 38, Mathieu heads to his own island home, depressed about a bone density problem found after a severe injury on the ice. There he meets beautiful, genderflux Indigo, his caretaker’s college age son and he’s captivated but initially wary of their age difference. Mat wallows a lot in his own drama, the cliché sports jock who never looked past playing the game, feeling sorry for himself and trying to deny his career is probably over. There’s a lot of irony to Mat the LGBTQ supporter, calling out people for homophobic language and remarks but staying deep in the closet and using his neighbor Fran as a beard. The romance with Indigo starts slow and sweet with lots of bonding over “The Breakfast Club” movie, which is awfully cute. Indigo is such an appealing character, finding his way past Mat’s defenses and understanding of his fears of coming out. Passion evolves slowly and the sex is scorching hot. Sadly, Mat’s fears of losing his ability to play hockey and revealing his sexuality coalesce, causing him to deny his connection with Indigo in a very cruel fashion. Mat tells the story in first person so his thoughts about what he knows he ought to do, but won’t, made me want to kick him where it hurts. I was so happy with Indigo’s response though. He doesn’t accept Mat’s craven behavior or half-baked apologies and promises. He tells Mat off in no uncertain terms and heads back to college, leaving Mat floundering for solutions. Fixing his problems isn’t made simple or easy for Mat, although I’d have preferred he jumped through even more hoops than he did. Mat’s neighbor Fran, Indigo’s father and even the homophobic nurse are such good secondary characters, too. The closeted sports figure is an often-used and unfortunately all too real trope but the author wrote an original storyline to make it fresh. A few turns of phrase in the narrative did sound flowery or cheesy and I wish the enticing age-gap had given me more feels for Mat and Indigo as a couple. Maybe that’s because Mat irked me so much! It’s a great romance with satisfactory redemption, a pleasing amount of self-awareness from Mat plus just enough hockey action for added interest. The epilogue is a wonderful bonus with a solid HEA. Recommended! *An ARC was provided by the author, publisher or promotional service and I have chosen to publish a fair and honest review for Jessie G Books Reviews blog*

  20. 5 out of 5

    NeverTooManyBooks

    Dear V.L. Locey, Genderflux: I do not think this word means what you think it means. Sincerely, NeverTooManyBooks Seriously, this whole book reads like someone out of the loop trying way too hard to hang with the cool kids. It oscillates between cringe-worthy and flat out insensitive and insulting. I have no more time for it but to say: zero stars. Save yourself some pain, read elsewhere.

  21. 5 out of 5

    Irina

    5 brilliant, shiny stars Wow, I really loved this book. It's my first time with this author and I'll definitely follow my reading with other books she wrote. But I should mention her joint worf with R J Scott and their series equally entertaining The Harrisburg Railers. I was right in the mood for something not too heavy but with some depth to the story and the characters and I found this book. Mathieu Beresford, the captain of the Surge hockey team, is facing the worst thing that could happen 5 brilliant, shiny stars Wow, I really loved this book. It's my first time with this author and I'll definitely follow my reading with other books she wrote. But I should mention her joint worf with R J Scott and their series equally entertaining The Harrisburg Railers. I was right in the mood for something not too heavy but with some depth to the story and the characters and I found this book. Mathieu Beresford, the captain of the Surge hockey team, is facing the worst thing that could happen to a proffessional athlete: having been injured and having ahead a long recovery with the daunting prospect of never being able to play hockey again. For the recovery period he goes to his home on his private island to be taken care of his caretaker of 20 years and his son, Indigo Neu along with a stern, rigid, homophobic, unyielding nurse hired by his agent Arn. What follows is a whole summer of grunting and wallowing in self-pity and grumping but Indigo, with his flowy shirt dresses and colourful apparition and kohl-lined chocolate eyes and painted lips allures him from the moment Mat sets eyes on him. It is Indigo who will unwillingly force Mat to face his twenty-four year old secret: that he is gay but no way can he come out considering his proffesion. Mat is so deep in the closet that he has long thrown the key and got accustomed to its darkness which only leads to lies, deception and cowardice. As much as he enjoys Indigo's seduction and his company he refuses to admit that their moments mean anything at all, despite the bright light that Indigo emanates with his joy of life and brave acknowlegment of his true self. Mat will end up hurting Indigo when he denies his love feelings in front of Arn or Jim, the team owner. What I liked most about this book is how the author treated the issue of coming out for a prof athlete and how this would affect his life. Some reviewers complained that Mat simply stood by and let Indigo get hurt by homophobic comments from the Nurse and his agent Arn. It wasn't like that, he did took a stand and most of the times he called them on these comments. However, at first, Mat let the comments fly by but this only enhances his cowardice and his inability to make the right decision for himself. I can imagine how difficult it was for Mat to face his most hidden self after a lifetime of pretend female dates and self denial. It is not easy to change your whole life in two months and make some life-changing decisions as well. V L Locey mastered Mat's inner conflict with exquisite brilliance and gripping accuracy. It is a story in which Mat's character evolves psychologically and emotionally, which, at last, allows him to make the right decisions, although in the process of this, he hurts deeply the person he loves the most. I also found Indigo and Mat's break up quite realistic. I liked the fact that Indigo doesn't forgive Mat as soon as "he sees the light" and comes to find him at college. The scene when Mat goes to apologize to Indigo and hopefully win him back is so heartfelt and emotional that I cried rivers. You can feel the depth of Indigo's hurt and his fragile emotional state so him refusing to go back in Mat's arms once he proffesed his love and his giving up hockey only adds to the realness of their situation. Indigo is mature enough, despite his age, to reject Mat since he hasn't realised that he needs to accept his love for another man and the loss of his other passion, hockey, on his own and for himself. I really liked that the author didn;t rush them to make up ( seeing as this happens in most books) and I liked that Mat and Indigo really talk and let things out ( again in some books the authors choose to barely skim the surface of the issues and then ......bam.....the MCs kiss and make up). In truth, I expected the age difference to be another issue between them seeing that Indigo is almost 21 and Mat is 38. The only clues that this somehow bothers Mat is his quick retorts to whomever calls Indigo a "kid" or him " Indigo's father" and the fact that Indigo is Mat's caretaker and old friend's son. But I'm glad that this doesn't bother or stops Mat and Indigo from being together. In a nutshell, I simply loved the book. I'm a fan of femme man or genderfluid characters and Indigo was the perfect embodiment of masculine and feminine combined. The book comes with some dihotomies : Indigo is a touch of feminine against Mat's masculinity, the brightness and sunshine of Indigo's attitude versus darkness prevailing in Mat's life, cheerfulness versus grumpiness, brave versus coward, emotional maturity versus age maturity, a life lived out in the open versus the loneliness of Mat's inside closet. All these differences are brought to life in the book skillfully and in a remarkably well-written style. It flows naturally, you think "yeah, that makes sense" but it is the author's outstanding ability to interwine all these threads in the story and weave a beautiful picture of two men in love and finding the right way to each other.

  22. 4 out of 5

    Mari Cardenas ~ Bayou Book Junkie

    4.25 Stars! Lost in Indigo is book 1 in this new series by VL Locey, Colors of Love. Mat's leg is broken during the first game of the championship series, making him step down temporarily as the captain of the Buffalo Surge hockey team and go back to his mansion along the St. Lawrence River to lick his wounds and heal from his fracture in time to rejoin his team for the pre-practice season. The last thing Mat expected was to be so attracted to his house's caretaker's son, Indigo Neu, who is gende 4.25 Stars! Lost in Indigo is book 1 in this new series by VL Locey, Colors of Love. Mat's leg is broken during the first game of the championship series, making him step down temporarily as the captain of the Buffalo Surge hockey team and go back to his mansion along the St. Lawrence River to lick his wounds and heal from his fracture in time to rejoin his team for the pre-practice season. The last thing Mat expected was to be so attracted to his house's caretaker's son, Indigo Neu, who is genderflux and fabulous and almost half Mat's age. While Mat is gay, he's not out to anyone and the thought of coming out and becoming the poster boy for gay rights on his team is not even a blip on his radar. Being faced with the decision of coming out or losing Indigo might be more difficult than he could imagine. Okay, so I liked Mat, he was sarcastic, down-to-earth and self-deprecating and his inner musings were amusing most of the time. He was also frustrating as all hell and I wanted to take a sledgehammer and break his other leg several times during the second half of this book. Really, I could understand why he was still in the closet, especially after meeting the team's owner, who was a piece of work, but I hated that he would tell Indigo that he loved that Indigo was himself and that he was fine with it and then tried to hide what they were to each other or that he would go all hot and cold at the drop of a hat. Grrr, argh!!! I loved Indigo, he was 18 years younger than Mat, but at times, he seemed the more mature of the two of them. He was unapologetically himself and I loved that about him. Be it that he felt feminine or more masculine on any given day, he just was. The chemistry between Indigo and Mat was off-the-charts and I loved them together, when Mat wasn't being difficult that is. I loved that after the big blowout, Indigo just took Mat back, but actually made him work for it. It was refreshing to see Indigo refuse to back down. I loved both Fran, Mat's friend, and Montclair, Indigo's dad, who was just amazing and while he didn't quite understand Indigo, he accepted and supported his son a hundred percent. I also liked Arn, Mat's agent, who came across as a bit of an insensitive jerk at first, but really came through for Mat when he needed him. Overall, I really enjoyed this book, despite my love/hate relationship with Mat, LOL. It was fun and entertaining, hot and sweet, with some angst thrown in for good measure. Very recommendable! *** copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie for my reading pleasure, a review wasn't a requirement. ***

  23. 4 out of 5

    Chris Kottner-Kirschner

    3.5 von 5 * Mathieu Beresford erleidet kurz vor dem größten Triumph seiner Karriere ein schwere Verletzung. Hilflos muss er aus seinem Krankenbett ansehen, wie seine Kollegen von Sieg zu Sieg eilen und am Ende den Cup holen. Ohne ihn, auch wenn man ihn natürlich immer wieder erwähnt. Es ist also nachvollziehbar, dass seine Laune nicht die Beste ist. Mat will sich auf seine Privatinsel in Kanada zurückziehen und dort seine Wunden lecken und wieder genesen. Unterstützung soll er dabei von seinem Ha 3.5 von 5 * Mathieu Beresford erleidet kurz vor dem größten Triumph seiner Karriere ein schwere Verletzung. Hilflos muss er aus seinem Krankenbett ansehen, wie seine Kollegen von Sieg zu Sieg eilen und am Ende den Cup holen. Ohne ihn, auch wenn man ihn natürlich immer wieder erwähnt. Es ist also nachvollziehbar, dass seine Laune nicht die Beste ist. Mat will sich auf seine Privatinsel in Kanada zurückziehen und dort seine Wunden lecken und wieder genesen. Unterstützung soll er dabei von seinem Hausmeister und dessen Sohn Indigo erhalten. Jedoch drückt man ihm auch noch eine Krankenschwester aufs Auge, mit der Mat schon vom ersten Augenblick an nicht zurecht kommt. Dafür weckt der junge Indigo sein Interesse. Verbotene Gefühle drängen sich in Mat auf, denen er aber auf keinen Fall nachgeben darf. Indigo ist tatsächlich noch sehr jung, aber schon reif und sehr verantwortungsbewusst. Er bringt ein wenig Freude in Mats Leben und zeigt seinerseits Interesse an dem etwas älteren Mann, der im Alter seines Vaters ist. Indigo hat auch eine feminine Seite und lebt diese auch aus. Das stößt vor allem der Krankenschwester bitter auf, die sich als ziemlich homophob herausstellt und so gar keinen Filter zu haben scheint.  Puh, ich muss gestehen - es ist kein einfaches Buch. Der Plot ist wirklich interessant und vor allem Indigo ist großartig. Er ist mein Held und zeigt deutlich mehr Rückgrad als Mat, der sich leider sehr schnell als ziemlicher Feigling und Drückeberger herausstellt. Natürlich versteht man es, dass er immer ein Leben im Schrank führen musste. Dass er jetzt am Ende seiner Karriere mit einer gewissen Identitätskrise zu kämpfen hat. Aber von einem fast 40jährigen Mann erwarte ich mir einfach mehr Reife, Übersicht und vor allem einen Plan B - nach dem Ende der Karriere. Sein Verhalten Indigo gegenüber hat mir nicht gefallen und ich finde, dass Indigo wirklich etwas Besseres verdient hätte. Die Krankenschwester wird viel zu spät in ihre Schranken gewiesen und wie Mats es so viele Jahre mit seinem ahnungslosen und latent homophoben Agenten, sowie dem hochgradig homophoben und rassistischen Vereinseigentümer ausgehalten hat, bleibt mir bis zum Schluss unverständlich.  Das Buch hätte echt tolle Ansätze geboten und ein wenig Realismus schadet einem Buch, das in so einer Umgebung spielt, ja nicht. Allerdings hätte ich mir von dem Haupthelden einfach Reife, Rückgrad, Charakter und Mut gewünscht. So bleibt ein fahler Nachgeschmack.

  24. 4 out of 5

    Carra

    A May/December romance always piques my interest, especially when it’s done by an author whose works I’ve enjoyed previously. Throw in a touch of hockey, even better. In this case, the story isn’t centered on Mathieu playing so much as him trying to recover from an injury; him playing comes as flashbacks instead. The story concentrates more on the development of the relationship between him and Indigo, and Mat’s self-imposed barriers to that happening. Mathieu has always been a great hockey playe A May/December romance always piques my interest, especially when it’s done by an author whose works I’ve enjoyed previously. Throw in a touch of hockey, even better. In this case, the story isn’t centered on Mathieu playing so much as him trying to recover from an injury; him playing comes as flashbacks instead. The story concentrates more on the development of the relationship between him and Indigo, and Mat’s self-imposed barriers to that happening. Mathieu has always been a great hockey player, though at 38 years old he’s aware that his time on the ice may not last too much longer. He’s been deeply closeted and doesn’t want to be the first to come out in his sport, and the fact that he’s not out while Indigo is very much so is one of the points of contention in the story, and the main cause of conflict between the two men. Indigo is a wonderful character. Very much out and proud, easily moving between masculine and feminine depending on how he feels at a particular time, and also about eighteen years younger than Mat. Indigo is totally comfortable in his own skin, and one of the things I wished we could have had during this story was his point of view (this is told entirely from Mat’s viewpoint). The attraction between Mat and Indigo is almost immediate, and even with the age gap they still click together easily both emotionally and physically. It’s not really their difference in age that’s an issue—it’s Mat’s need to continue hiding in his closet, someplace Indigo is definitely not going to go with him. There are some really good supporting characters in the story, in particular Mat’s longtime friend and “beard”, Fran, as well as Indigo’s father—who is also Mat’s friend as well as the caretaker of his island home. The one character that I was completely incensed over (and I’m sure most readers will say the same) was Mat’s nurse. The fact that she was allowed to stay as long as she did made me a bit ticked off with Mat considering her blatant homophobia and her treatment of Indigo. Overall, I really liked this story and thought it was a great start to this new series, which I’ll definitely be following as more books in it are released. Lost in Indigo gets a solid 4 stars from me, and I recommend it to any M/M romance fan. This book is meant for readers 18+ for adult language and sexual content.

  25. 5 out of 5

    Amy Dufera

    Lost in Indigo, by V.L. Locey, managed to absolutely wow me and force its way onto my all-time favorites list. Mathieu, a gay, closeted hockey player, returns home to his mansion to heal from an injury. Told to rest, recover and start rehab while he is home, he ends up being cared for by his old groundskeeper, Montclair, and his son, Indigo. Having played since he was five, Mathieu is confused about how to move on with life if he loses hockey. With the sport his everything, he’s unsure how to repl Lost in Indigo, by V.L. Locey, managed to absolutely wow me and force its way onto my all-time favorites list. Mathieu, a gay, closeted hockey player, returns home to his mansion to heal from an injury. Told to rest, recover and start rehab while he is home, he ends up being cared for by his old groundskeeper, Montclair, and his son, Indigo. Having played since he was five, Mathieu is confused about how to move on with life if he loses hockey. With the sport his everything, he’s unsure how to replace it. Seeing Indigo for the first time in years, Mathieu is surprised by the change in Indigo’s appearance. He’s wearing makeup and what appears to be a dress. Mathieu just can’t stop looking at Indigo’s lips and wants to kiss him to confirm he is wearing lipstick. He even tells him, “‘You’re cute’”. The genderflux Indigo is adorable, loveable, and refreshing. It is fantastic that Indigo’s father supports him, despite a lack of understanding. And it’s breathtaking how Indigo’s presence helps lighten Mathieu’s day, helps him to feel alive, and lessens the depression from his possible career-ending injury. Mathieu and Indigo are sweet together. In particular, I adore their age difference and the fact that Indigo’s young age is part of Mathieu’s appeal, along with his laugh, smile and the way he dresses and moves. Mathieu loves that Indigo is a smart and compassionate man, who’s filled with dreams and strong opinions. For the two men to remain together, they need to deal with a homophobic nurse, the fact that Mathieu is closeted, and the impending departure date for Indigo, as he returns to college. In addition, should Mathieu come out, he’s unsure he’d be okay in public with a man who wears dresses, makeup and nail polish. One of my favorite lines in the story is when Indigo tells Mathieu, “‘Small steps can lead to big changes.’” It is particularly relevant to Mathieu, but it is something everyone should remember. Another is when an island widow tells Mathieu, “‘Open your eyes and heart, Mathieu. I’m sure it’s closer than you think.’” I find this line to be far-reaching, as people often fail to see what is right in front of their eyes. Lost in Indigo is an enthralling tale, as V.L. Locey combines a tough hockey player with a genderfluid man half his age. The fact that V.L. does so in such a beautiful, romantic way, is impressive. To me this is a must read! I’m looking forward to more in this new Colors of Love series.

  26. 4 out of 5

    ButtonsMom2003

    I loved Indigo. I really enjoyed Lost in Indigo; it's a good age gap story. I'm not a sports fan but I do like reading romance stories with sports themes. A lot of the hockey stuff in this one went right over my head but that didn't take away from the story at all. The synopsis/blurb is good so I won't rehash it. While reading the book there were many times I wanted smack Mathieu with a hockey stick – hard! He's deep in the closet and Indigo is out and proud. Mat hurts Indigo so many times that he I loved Indigo. I really enjoyed Lost in Indigo; it's a good age gap story. I'm not a sports fan but I do like reading romance stories with sports themes. A lot of the hockey stuff in this one went right over my head but that didn't take away from the story at all. The synopsis/blurb is good so I won't rehash it. While reading the book there were many times I wanted smack Mathieu with a hockey stick – hard! He's deep in the closet and Indigo is out and proud. Mat hurts Indigo so many times that he finally can't take it any more and cuts off contact. I wasn't sure how Mat could ever redeem himself but this is a love story so they do get their HEA. Epilogues are sometimes my favorite part of a story and this one was good. One of the things I was a bit frustrated with in the story was the horrible, homophobic nurse that Mat's agent hired for him. I didn't quite understand why she wasn't thrown out the door right away. It didn't ruin the story for me; I just found it a bit puzzling. I loved the character of Fran, Mat's friend who was also his "beard" over the years. She was delightful. All in all this is a great start to a new series from V.L. Locey and I look forward to reading more stories in this world. An advanced copy of this book was provided to me but my review was voluntary and not influenced by the author. ***Review will post on Xtreme-Delusions dot com 7/16/18***

  27. 4 out of 5

    Ramona

    Mathieu is the captain of his hockey team the Buffalo Surge. Watching his team go all the way, lying in a hospital bed. All his hard work and dreams of the Stanley Cup gone, because of broken bones. Lost in his pain all he wants to do is go home and wallow in the pity party he has going. High on pain killers he meets his caretakers son Indigo. He is drawn to the stunning young man in the blue checkered dress. His reaction to him a reason to not take any more pills. He is in the closet, door firm Mathieu is the captain of his hockey team the Buffalo Surge. Watching his team go all the way, lying in a hospital bed. All his hard work and dreams of the Stanley Cup gone, because of broken bones. Lost in his pain all he wants to do is go home and wallow in the pity party he has going. High on pain killers he meets his caretakers son Indigo. He is drawn to the stunning young man in the blue checkered dress. His reaction to him a reason to not take any more pills. He is in the closet, door firmly shut. Indigo quickly starts opening that door a tiny sliver at a time. Mat is entranced with him. He admits to Indigo that he is gay, the first person he has told his secret to. Their time together is difficult for Mat. This beautiful captivating man has him tied up in knots. Wanting him forever, but so afraid of what that future would mean to his life, he screws it up. Losing Indigo guts him even worse than losing hockey. He'll just have to fix it. I enjoyed this book so much. Indigo leapt off the page. I swear I could almost smell his scent he was that real. Together the men made a interesting pair. Mat’s gruff exterior combined with his soft loving center. Indigo’s incandescence and total love for Mat. Very nice supporting cast (with one exception, but she jumped off the page too). Nice story! Review Copy requested and reviewed on behalf of OMGReads.

  28. 5 out of 5

    Terri

    This story is both beautiful and surprisingly simple - in a good way. Mathieu is coping with being older and injured, his professional hockey career possibly coming to an end. When he meets beautiful young Indigo, he finds his bright light in the darkness. Indigo helps Mathieu find other things - happy moments - to take his focus off his misery. Mat is not one who just accept change though. He isn't willing to come out as gay and admit that Indigo is more than his employee, because he isn't yet This story is both beautiful and surprisingly simple - in a good way. Mathieu is coping with being older and injured, his professional hockey career possibly coming to an end. When he meets beautiful young Indigo, he finds his bright light in the darkness. Indigo helps Mathieu find other things - happy moments - to take his focus off his misery. Mat is not one who just accept change though. He isn't willing to come out as gay and admit that Indigo is more than his employee, because he isn't yet ready to give up on his career or become the first professional player to come out. If Mat doesn't have hockey, what will he do with his life? This story is all about the relationships in Mathieu's life, with his lover, his agent, his caretaker/friend of twenty years (Indigo's father), his neighbor (beard?), and his homophobic nurse. All these people in his life help Mat figure out over time where he wants to take his life and how he plans to get there. There is love, romance, devastation, anger, and wonderfully intimate scenes. The one thing there is surprisingly little of is hockey, which is very different from what I'm used to from this author. Guess what? It's my new favorite, the most beautiful story I've read from her; and I can't express enough just how many emotions it evokes. I am beyond happy to recommend this book!

  29. 4 out of 5

    Nicole

    3.5 stars. I love hockey stories and I was excited to read this. Mat gets injured in a game just before the Stanley Cup. His team wins but he is in the hospital, not feeling as if he won the game along with his team because he wasn't there with them. So he hopes that after he gets better he can go back. When he returns back home so that his leg heals, he meets Indigo. Indigo is genderflux and he is such a sweetheart, I loved him! He takes care of Mat's garden. The both of them have an age differe 3.5 stars. I love hockey stories and I was excited to read this. Mat gets injured in a game just before the Stanley Cup. His team wins but he is in the hospital, not feeling as if he won the game along with his team because he wasn't there with them. So he hopes that after he gets better he can go back. When he returns back home so that his leg heals, he meets Indigo. Indigo is genderflux and he is such a sweetheart, I loved him! He takes care of Mat's garden. The both of them have an age difference... which I didn't feel. Mat is 38 but to me he acted like he was in his late 20's. Which it probably was my mistake cause I could not picture him in his late 30's... at all. (Also since I don't know much from hockey even if I like it, I had no idea a player could play for so long!!) One thing that irked me, was the nurse. Omg I wanted to kill her... and Mat didn't do anything about her! Mat is not out but it made me so angry of how he acted... Sure, Indigo is there and makes him feel so much better but I did not feel their connection. The "I love you's" came so fast, I got whiplash, I so did not expect it. Other people will like it cause it's cute and I wish, I myself could love it as much as them, but it just didn't work for me. I will give the rest of the series a chance though!

  30. 4 out of 5

    Amy

    This is truly a great book! There’s hockey with Mathieu being a professional hockey player but this book is so much more than a sports romance. Mat is deeply in the closet, worried about how it would affect his career, he never came out to anyone and really is not sure he ever will. Having a major injury and needing time to heal, he heads to his island in Canada. His long time friend and caretaker brings his college aged son, Indigo, to help Mat. From the beginning he knows Indigo is someone spe This is truly a great book! There’s hockey with Mathieu being a professional hockey player but this book is so much more than a sports romance. Mat is deeply in the closet, worried about how it would affect his career, he never came out to anyone and really is not sure he ever will. Having a major injury and needing time to heal, he heads to his island in Canada. His long time friend and caretaker brings his college aged son, Indigo, to help Mat. From the beginning he knows Indigo is someone special, not just the way he dresses or how beautiful he is but he feels it in his heart. Indigo is genderflux, some days he feels more feminine than others, and Mathieu is completely taken by him. Indigo is out and proud, willing to let Mat come out on his own terms. Though things don’t go as they hoped. This story is amazing. Mat falls in love with Indigo, enjoys the summer with him but all the time hidden from the spotlight and those around them. He knows it isn’t right but he is scared to death. You’ll want to read how Mat learns that his heart and happiness matter more than hockey, more than what people think. This is really a well written story of learning to be yourself, coming out and loving another person with your whole heart. Excellent book!

Add a review

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Loading...
We use cookies to give you the best online experience. By using our website you agree to our use of cookies in accordance with our cookie policy.